What do you really want?

by HCHC on November 4, 2013

by Andrea Wenger

The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.

You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.

People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.

The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.
~ Rumi

This is one of my favorite poems, and it’s been on my mind frequently in recent weeks. How am I asleep in various areas of my life? What do I really want? How do I keep falling back into the illusion that the door is slammed shut, rather than round and open? I invite you into this inquiry with me.

Lately, I’ve been painfully aware of how quickly I fall back asleep. My old practiced way of being is numb–cut off from my feelings (or at least not expressing them!), not having or owning any particular opinion, and avoiding difficult decisions. On some level, consciously or subconsciously, I don’t want to take responsibility for the possible outcomes of my decisions, or of expressing my truest feelings or thoughts. While I’ve come a long way on the path of waking up, there are more layers to peel away on this onion. It’s a daily practice that I find challenging, exciting, and deeply rewarding. Living life awake is so much richer and fuller, I say. And about those outcomes? “There is no failure, only feedback.” When I keep that in mind, it’s much easier to move forward and live my life fully and authentically!

What we really want is a matter of the heart–not of the mind–and getting to the heart takes persistent practice in letting go of the mind’s many constructs, conditioning, illusions, and assumptions.

My Reiki master practitioner/teacher, Bonnie Tarantino, told me in one of my early sessions with her over 10 years ago that the most important journey was from my head to my heart. She was right. Many years later, I am still on that journey. It’s not a quick or easy one, but perhaps the most important journey any of us will ever take. Are you on the path with me?

It’s so easy to get caught up in the stories, drama, worries and “urgencies” of our physical world, and forget our connection to the spiritual world. The door between them is round and open. So is the door to our hearts. It’s simply a matter of getting out of our own way and opening to the truth of our oneness as physical AND spiritual beings.

Are you awake to your thoughts, emotions, and how they are affecting or even controlling you? Do you know what you really want? Are you ready to step across the doorsill and experience the truth of your authentic self?

We are all on this challenging path of waking up more fully to life, and I say it’s much easier when we do it together in community rather than struggling alone.



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